Ok, finally got around to changing the introduction text. But as you can see, I'm too sianz to write a proper one, so am going to blabber on in hopes that you will get an idea of what sort of person I am by guessing. Yeah, the format of this blog is crap. I haven't got around to fixing it. Later lah.. Much later...
Why must you be so good to me? Why must you give me everything, and give in to me for everything I want? Why must you be so cautious of offending me, and so keen to placate me? Why must you constantly seek to follow me, be there for me.. to protect me?
By your actions you deny me the liberty to be selfish. I have to think for you, because it's as if you won't think for yourself.
At the same time, you make me into a bad person. I want to drive you away so I can breathe, and I want to drive you into a corner so you will stop being like that.
Why, in all your willingness to give me what I want, do you fail at ever giving me what I want?
ME signed off at 11:18 PM
Sunday, May 23, 2010
122nd entry
Sometimes I think.
If I know you for long enough...
Will I ever actually know you?
ME signed off at 1:06 AM
Sunday, May 02, 2010
121st entry
Sunsets were not made to be watched alone.
Sunrises neither.
Nor delicacies of food and wine. Nor the dances of people or the beauty of the world.
ME signed off at 11:51 PM
122nd entry
Why do people lie to themselves?
Because sometimes if you lie to the entire world long enough, it becomes the truth. You persist in the lie, you believe in the lie, and it becomes the truth - at least for you. After all, reality is constructed from our perception to it.
It isn't wrong and it isn't bad. As ridiculous a reason as it might be, it gives comfort. So why not lie to myself? Tell myself I don't want what I want. It makes me happier. At least for this moment, at least for now.
